Monday, September 19, 2016
In early July of this year (2016) I discovered I needed to undergo open heart surgery. I knew from past experience that I had to prepare my body/mind for this. I had undergone major surgery in 1999 and it seemed as if my body had been angry at the sudden jolt. I developed arthritis in my knees so bad that I had trouble walking. As if my path forward was harder to follow. So in the few days I had to prepare for this surgery I did a lot of meditation. Then one day I seemed to sense that my inner self had replied with the phrase "But this is OPEN heart surgery". It seemed as if I was being told to open up my heart to others. I took notice and broke out of my shell of fear and isolation. I reached out to my family and friends and told them what I was about to undergo. It was wonderful the way they drew around me with caring and support. It was also wonderful the way I received support and caring from the caregivers I encountered. I was in the hospital and rehab facilities for two months. Healing would have been so much more difficult had I simply been dealing with the physical aspects of all this. After the replacement of a leaky heart valve, among other things, I discovered my body/mind had a rage to heal. I was extremely weak but every day I have been getting stronger in body and mind. Previously my life had been crushing me and now I find that every day I am able to take on more challenges and find solutions for problems I had been running from. This new openness to my self and others is a source of joy and energy. The Wise Magician knows of the source of joy and energy in connection to others. May this come to you. May the spark be with you.